Oh man do I wish that I had a pillar of fire today….or a cloud of smoke….just to guide me where I’m supposed to be going. Do you have those days? Where you think you should be going one way, but there’s no clear “sign” and you get confused?
Maybe you don’t have a specific question you’re looking for an answer about…..but rather the general direction of….where is my life going?…where is it going to take me, who am I going to be, what am I supposed to learn, ….what should be my focus?
Days like this….I want a clear vision….I have dreams, like many of us do I suppose, and a “vision” of where I’d like to end….but I desire a few goals along the way, and they seem to be cloudy today. I don’t know why, but it’s like…..today, I just feel like I’m living until tomorrow, not really with a purpose, which is pretty sad when I think about it. I’d love to be one of those Israelites, living day to day following a giant pillar of fire, or a cloud of smoke….they knew that there would be an ultimate end point, but until then, just following the fire & smoke was enough.
I’m trying to live a better story, something that’s worth being a character in it…..but I don’t know where I want this story to go….I don’t know where God might have written the scene already.
Do you know what I mean? ….thoughts?
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Yes, it is so hard to tell when to act and when to wait. Should I step out or be patient? Am I desiring it because God is leading me or is it just me? It's scary to make a big change… what if it's not God and it is a huge mistake and I should have just been content where I was? I want to be where he wants me but I'm not sure where that is.